acceptance

I'm still struggling with it..to accept the diagnosis and the realization that I'm losing control over my body.. im not so sure if i should talk about it to my friends, the ones are close to me, all know, but my children would not understand it at their age right now, difficult to explain.. I'm slow, getting slower.still i would like to control everything around me, because i dont have the faith to believe that everything would go well without me.