realization after my emotinal battles

it was about a year and a half ago...after my covid 'journey'.. that something was not right with my left hand, i just thought it would go away soon...then i realized my walking style had changed, i had trouble with puting my left leg lépésről lépésre...no worries, i said to myself...it will go away... but félév has passed and it got worse, so i went to see a neurologist...she said: almost sure its parkinson...i didnt take it 'that'seriously.. i went to see another neurologist..there the MRI said nothing, csak azt hogy ez nem covid utóhatás..my nerve cells were all there, without changes...so then what? should i go to see a phsycologist? i did. clearly, i had several little traumas before i had these sympthoms...

everything is connected and my neurvous system is not that stiff, végülis a merkúrom kvadrátolja a holdam = emotional labilitás... mindenki has some labilities inside or outside that you try to compensate, but then comes something that you can't control, then you start to freak out, you lose control.. you are lost..I will be lost.. thats what i felt when my final diagnosis was parkinson. this disease controls all of you...